The other morning--Tuesday--when I woke up and you, rainy day, were happening, I was taken aback. I had a plan for what I would wear that was now rendered, entirely, moot. And the new plan wasn't all that helpful--while I had a raincoat, I did not have a hat nor an umbrella. In fact, out of all the clothes and accessories and accoutrements I have for weather, I have never really accounted for the way that rain gets one's head wet. Which meant, rainy day, that I walked to class carrying books and sheafs of poems, not to mention my regular purse and so forth, getting soaked and more soaked. Plus, that morning I treated my alarm like it was just a suggestion, so I was late. Late, panicky, and soaked.
Let me pause to ask: where is my umbrella? My hypothetical umbrella, which I contemplate purchasing every year. There are endless stylish umbrelli, umbrelli aplenty. You'd think I'd have bought one about ten times--but no, I have no umbrella, and thus I find myself periodically in a soaked frame of mind, questioning my judgement and also the weather.
Periodically, one of the women in my writing group gets after me a little because--and this is absolutely true--much of what I write is melancholy, too melancholy from her point of view, like a moody teenager's work, except about grown-up subjects, and maybe the subjects are a moody teenager's too. I can't disagree with her. Sometimes I point this out to myself. But to rain and to melancholy I always find myself returning.
I had a big break in my work day today, and because the past few weeks have been full of long, long work days, I decided to leave campus for an hour or so. As I drove, the sky pillowy and pearly, I thought how lovely, how perfect, really. It's mid-April, the weather is cool, the weather is wet. The weather is not sunny, at least not commitedly so. It is the weather I want to be out in, or looking out upon. It is my best weather, and maybe that's why I do such a lame job of sheltering myself from it.
Rainy day, I am looking forward to a great, extended swath of you, with or without a hat.
Please don't let me down,
Rain in spring is acceptable. Snow is not!ReplyDelete
I love your ode to a rainy day. May you enjoy many more of them, minus that springtime snow Amelia mentioned.ReplyDelete
I was thinking "Umbrellas for the Melancholy Soul." But you're right--none needed. Let it rain.ReplyDelete
Young, I though melancholy was the loveliest of words. I rarely admit that I still do. Maybe some of us don't ever really grow up and gain the sense to come in out of the rain. Maybe we don't want to.ReplyDelete
Rainy is the weather I carry around inside. Beautiful.ReplyDelete
Besides, curly hair does fine in rain.